Everybody needs a shining star, when things ain’t what they seem
It terrifies me that you people are like that. If you ask me who I’d most not want to be like, it’d be you people. It’s your serious lack of understanding, the parochialism, and insensitivity that is appalling. The fact that people who I have grown up with are the ones whom I don’t understand at all. One thing though, this has taught me one invaluable lesson - that I don’t ever want to be you, not one bit.
So thanks for this feeling of disillusion and for making me go through the fight of finding my focus once again. If you wonder why we cannot have decent conversations, the last one we had 10 minutes ago should have shown you. Then again, you people are so self-absorbed that nothing I say gets absorbed, or even processed.
So let’s just agree that we are different people and that my happiness is in my hands, and that as much as I’d love your support, I’m not willing to fight that emotional battle with you. There’s looking out for my interests and there’s thinking that I’m stupid. You people obviously think I’m an imbecile completely incapable of looking out for myself. If I’ve given you that impression, it’s only my fault but I can say with all conviction right now that I DO KNOW WHAT I’M DOING!
I am weary from all this fighting. From trying to prove that I do know what I want. Saying things with intended malice does not make you a better person. Look beneath the surface and you’ll see that you are threatened. You might think otherwise but you are threatened. The essential thing here is to understand there is absolutely no threat and that I am still the person I was 21 years ago, just with life experience and the ability make choices.
